Another year passes by

Dear Kevin and Brittanie,

Another birthday that I missed, another year older and I am missing you both dearly. I was so happy when we had made contact, only to have my happiness disappear each day that progresses with each failed attempt to contact you. Christina called hoping to reach you with no luck. And I have tried IMing you, Kevin several times. I can only hope that you are able to see the messages that I have sent.

I guess that I have to resolve myself to waiting until you are ready to see me, to talk to me, to contact me. Until then, I live in hell, knowing that my two youngest children are lost to me. This depression takes hold when I think about missing out on your lives. I wish that things didn't go as they did, I wish that Brent had not molested Christina and destroyed our family. It just hurts that I am the one that now must go on without knowing my children. Please, God, someday, let them find me and let me have a chance to tell them I love them again.

Mommy